Curious About Your Thoughts

Ok, so... I may be way off base here. Just being cynical, hormonal, envious... not sure which. Looking for your thoughts on how you would react.

Our "friends" are going on vacation. It's not like a whoopiedido vacation, just taking their boat to the coast and staying at their timeshare. Now, I have known about this "vacation" via facebook and have been waiting for my "friend" to mention something. Not an invite, just a mention of that they were even going on vacation. I mean, should I have to find out things on facebook? There is no approval required by me or anything, I just tend to mention to my FRIENDS when I am going to be out of town for a week. Even her husband has kept it hush hush - he sees Cpt J almost every day at the airport.

I have several theories. One is that she is desperately trying to pregnant and isn't having any success. Two, she has rekindled a lot of high school friendships through facebook and has dumped her current friends. Three, I am slowly entering the mommy club and she isn't. Four, they have decided that they don't like us anymore. WTF?

Why is this even bothering me you ask? Well, last night her DH called Cpt J in regards to something at work. J asked what they were up to this weekend (I haven't said anything to J) and the husband mentions that they are going to the coast for a week and did we want to go? Um, what? It's Thursday, you are leaving tomorrow. This is the first you have mentioned it. So, he asks to talk to me. This is what he says, "well, K's brother is going with us until Sunday - you guys should come over Monday morning until Wednesday morning because K's friend from high school is joining us on Wednesday afternoon until Friday." DON'T GIVE US THE SYMPATHY INVITE!!!! DON'T FIT US IN TO YOUR ALREADY BUSY VISITOR SCHEDULE!!!! I am livid, just livid. An afterthought invite? Go to hell and take your "stuff" with you. So, I am checking FB this morning and seriously considered unfriending this chick. Stuff like that really pisses me off. She was there.... did she mention my conversation with her husband and that she would really like for us to come? HELL NO.

God, it's high school. But you know what? It hurts. We do stuff with these people all the time and now I feel like the friendship is going in a different direction. Baby's really do change you.

The day at the pool with my neighbor was really nice. I could see myself enjoying an iced tea with her. Yes, iced tea - not the Long Island kind. But, she knows all scoop on sitters, doctors, schools, etc. She even offered some opinions on her church (me sulking).

Cpt J and I are going our separate ways this weekend. He is off to the beach to spend some time with his folks and I am taking the zoo to my mom's for a few days. Need to get out and look at someone else's four-walls.

Cpt J's wife searching for her place

Mish Mosh

I have sucked at keeping up my blogging lately. I was doing nothing but pissing and moaning and, well, that's just no fun. I think I was really falling into a depression, and I decided this morning to get out of this funk and do something with all my free time. So, once I get a couple of loads of laundry done I am going to meet a new friend at the pool. She is on my neighborhood commitee and we have lived across the street from each other for about 4 years and never spoken. More to follow...

I can really feel the baby moving around and get freaked out when I don't. I have noticed his patterns, so if it is off at all I am ready to call the doc. I haven't yet though... I have been good. God, I cannot wait until this little melon gets here. His hel-nana has purchased the crib, changing table and pack-in-play (amongst a million other things). I gave in to her pressure and picked out a set and honestly, it got me in the spirit and I can't wait to pick up the linens for the crib. Damnit, sucked in!!!

Cpt J finally felt a jump. He would have to sit with his hand on my belly for what seems like hours to feel what I feel, but finally the other day he felt a bit. Wow, never seen him glow like that. Close - but not like that =).

J has a phemonenal schedule - for him - next month. He is off like half the month, but the flight time is awesome. I just have to look forward to the days in between with him at home ALL DAY. He has been working on the car, tearing up dead sod... don't get me wrong, he keeps busy. But, he is hip to my nap time. Like WAY too much nap time. Damnit, caught.

Cpt J's wife is learning to live with herself again

Temporary Psycho

I am officially psycho, at least that has become my new nickname around the farm these days. Nothing makes me happy, everyone drives me nuts and I am back to thinking I smell shit everywhere I go. I burst out into tears over stupid things and I hate Cpt J's hair all of a sudden.

I am fortunate that so far I do not have the swelling and misery that a lot of others seem to have at 6 months. I just woke up the other morning to realize that I swallowed a basketball, but other than that I feel great. Physically. Mentally - not so much. My whole world as I knew it came crumbling down with the dreaded words of "employment separation." I always knew that I defined myself as my "career," but I never stopped enjoying life to it's fullest. Everyone keeps telling me to "enjoy this time." Uh hello, my savings will be gone in 18 months and I have to be home witnessing what has been going on for years when Cpt J is off. HOW CAN I ENJOY MYSELF??

J was clearly happy to have four-legs today. He left bright and early and won't be home until this evening. He kissed me on the forehead as I lay out on my back in bed, and told me to "have a good day. Why don't you go out and get a pedicure or something?" He rules. I suck.

I have a 70 year old heli-mom for sale*. *DISCLAIMER* She is high-maintenance, she talks A LOT when she is drinking white wine and she will refer to your child as "ours."

Cpt J's wife is off to sit in the driveway in a lawn chair with broke ass toes

Complaint Department

We are missing Mustangs and Mustangs at Fantasy of Flight again this year. Our pilot and car club friends "tailgate" and it has been a rip in the past. Not to mention the weather is GORGEOUS!

I just wanted to complain that I am not getting my way today.

And if you ask why I don't go without Cpt J..... well, I am not allowed to drive is car alone. Yep, he's a dork. He hides the keys. Bigger dork. And I can't indulge in adult behavior. 16 more weeks.

Cpt J's wife swallowed a basketball for Easter

The Bunny

My mom keeps reminding me that I have never been baptized or christened (sp?). Well, whose fault is that? We went to Dillards yesterday and they have the CUTEST Easter/Passover/Sunday best outfits. Smarty pants announced to everyone that, "we don't need to look at those because my daughter doesn't practice religion." Again, whose fault is that?

Cpt J and I both went to Christian private schools, we are both scarred for life, someday I will explain.

So.... I sincerely wish all of you a Happy Easter or Passover, I hope you get a visit from the Easter Bunny :)

Cpt J's wife is off to eat the ears off a chocolate rabbit